“I don’t hate myself. I just don’t want myself.” ~Jen Curry (that’s me)
Sometimes people cannot understand apathy. I experience it in deep Bipolar Depression bouts, and sometimes with anxiety. I have no better way to describe the total lack of interest in life and self.
However, that quote I threw out there is the best way I’ve ever come up with in use of describing it.
It’s Mental Health Awareness Month.
So, I talked about a piece.
Ever forward.
Apathy is very hard for me. I am normally a very passionate person. I get into/get enjoyment from many things in life. When depressed, I feel flat. Nothing affects or excites me and life with no passion or excitement is horrible for me. The lengthy period of apathy I experienced over the winter led me to eat, and eat and eat. I cared little about personal hygiene or exercise and gained a whopping 46 pounds in the past 6 months. I now must struggle to lose the weight and try to maintain a level balance and avoid going into hypo maniac state.
Good topic Jen.
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I wish you the very best in your weight loss endeavor. I’m sorry for your struggle. I’m sorry for *our* struggle. I believe we need to stick together. Encourage each other. Survive. 😊💛
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