There’s a fantastic movie called Only Lovers Left Alive in which one of the characters, Tom Hiddleston’s Adam, says he’s barely still there. At that point, he had surrendered and was resigned with meeting his end.
I have also felt that isolation and eventual resignation more times than I could count. Far too many.
I’ve come to the realization that there’s no spirit, no soul, no God, no heaven, no hell, no reincarnation. I’m not here to learn lessons to take into the next life. Consciousness and the universe don’t have a plan for me. I can’t jump and end it all and hang on to the lie that, “oh well, I’ll get it right next time.’ This one life is IT and it’s lights out. One and done.’ And this is a sobering thought. It makes me want to do what I can to keep going and cling tenaciously to every breath.
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That’s a very interesting perspective. Thought-provoking. Thank you for sharing.
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