bipolar-uninvited

Cards on the table...I have Bipolar...in spades! I'm trying to do this blog & an AUTHENTIC youtube channel. We'll see. I like to create. I live in wonder of someone who maintains the same mood for a week at a time. I'm into this adult coloring gig. Sketching. I am always reading. Novels, comics, magazine articles... I listen to books as well. I love my Kindle Fire. I am a writer of short stories and poetry. I have been addicted to playing Spades for decades now. No, I'm not telling you how many decades. I adore song birds and beautifully colored birds. I love zoos and aquariums. Museums, too. However, I have many physical issues holding me back now. That story will be one of many that will unfold as we get to know each other. I love water. So glad I live near a river. Oceans, waterfalls, rain, and I even visited Niagara Falls, flying overhead in a helicopter. I did the latter with a dear friend who I eventually ended up losing because of a crappy manic spell, during which I was apparently a crummy person and friend. This has happened a lot. I think I'm getting better about that because I'm opening up more. I'm working on becoming more vulnerable, transparent and real. AUTHENTIC. This has scared people off, but the ones who stay around, those lovlies have been solid friendships for years. "Tell people a little about yourself" it prompts. There isn't anything little about me. Even when I was a kid, young, "little" girl, so much lurking, menacing. I think I've been Bipolar forever. I wasn't diagnosed until 2004, however. This was after a terrible manic, psychotic breakdown. In front of my husband. In front of my three year old son. In all of my life, I'll never know what that did to them. This blog will have two authors. Hopefully three. Depressed, Hypo/Manic. And the third is the self who tries to remain stable, level and walking the line. I hope to share something that might help someone. I look forward to talking with folks, if they so wish. I want people to become educated. I've got a lot I want to do, and I'm sure this will become more and more tailored. Thanks if you decide to join me in the this journey. Let's survive both the fear and excitement of the BP Roller Coaster.

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Thirst

They’re nipping at my heels, tearing flesh, drawing blood. My demons are coming for me.

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Coming with a thirst.

Great List of Coping Suggestions

I’ve done/used several of these. They work sometimes.

What about you guys?

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Sorry

I’ve been so sick. Since July, really, but intensity (right word?) varies. I will try to catch up soon, and I appreciate you all for the likes and comments. I’ll reply and read your stuff, too.

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Gonna Heart Myself

#goals

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Going Down – BP in an Elevator

What you’re seeing is often what I look like when crashing from (hypo)mania. Projects scattered. Tons of ideas and writing. Spinning my wheels not really getting anywhere. Medical appointment/paperwork for my mom. Son and school. Having to plan to go out of town.

Crash.