Black

BLACK ~ 4.4.18

Here’s a thing. Great mood or not, Johnny Cash music speaks to the situation every time. 🎡🎢🎧🎡🎢🎧 The Man in Black. Every single time.

As for me.

Truth?

It’s not peppy social media post type stuff. It’s the negative stuff most people fail to post.

SPOILER ALERT: LIFE (and its truths and this post) AREN’T ALWAYS PRETTY.

Miserable. That’s me. Okay? Miserable. So miserable and tired of fighting it. And for effin what? Even if I crawl my way back to the top, I’ll be back here soon. It is the reality I face with my day-to-day, week-to-week, month-to-month Bipolar. And I’m so extremely tired of the physical pain.

And I love you folks, I promise I do, but don’t tell me to pray it away with name it and claim it, and don’t tell me to drink a smoothie. Sometimes, it really is okay to say, “I have no idea what you face, or what to say, but I’m listening. I care. I’m here. It’s important to me you’re on this planet.”

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10 thoughts on “Black

  1. It IS ok and although you don’t think so, you are awesome. For simply surviving everyday, for simply trying, ok scratch trying, insert breathing. And no-one else understands and thats ok. F*ck them and take care of urself ❀ as best u can. Because Bipolar ain’t no walk in the park, and if one more person tells me to be strong, I will strongly tell them what I think of that idea. Be mis, be you, and know that I sees u, with and without ur diagnosis.

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      1. Im battling myself. And the freaking depressive fog is persistent and ALOT UNDERwhelming. Exhausting. So Im searching for as much sunshine I can find. Its elusive some days, but worth the while when it happens. 🌞

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