Dear Brain Please Hush

Yesterday, I drove a six hour trip home from up north in our state. About four hours into the trip, the thought occurred to me, “My mind hasn’t stopped this entire time.” My brain does not shut up. Ever. It’s why, in order to go to sleep, I cannot lie in a completely silent room. My mind would wind me up even more than usual, and often severe anxiety kicks in as a result.

Even when I’m not upset or anxious, some chatter is going on, such as songs playing over and over from a certain artist. Even if the song cuts off, my mind is onto the next thing. I cannot keep up with the thoughts, whether good ideas for writing, projects I would like to begin, or obsessive thoughts about a small mistake I made at work a decade ago. There’s a ton of second guessing myself and past decisions, too.

Yes, technically they’re called obsessive thoughts, and I have racing thoughts as well. I honestly don’t care about correct terminology for now.

What I’m trying to say is I would love for my mind to quieten down sometimes. I think it’s one reason I’m enjoying audiobooks vs. written, hardback novels, for now.

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Do any of you face this issue? I’m guessing some of you do. And can you get the chatter to stop? How?

Much appreciated. ✌ I love hearing from you guys.

Curious About ECT

I’m curious. Those of you with Bipolar and/or other mental illness, have you tried ECT treatments? If so, why and how did it go?

I’ve heard a select few say it’s the only thing that has worked for them.

From what I’ve read, though it is no longer barbaric, it still isn’t completely understood as to *why* it works.

So, when I think of ECT, I cringe, but then I remember that most of these meds I take for the Bipolar, there’s not a clear understanding there either as to how and why they help. And i take several every day.

Any feedback or thoughts on this?