Open

OPEN ~ 6.1.18

It’s an absolute crime not to get up from my seat and walk over and open the blinds to allow sunlight in and see the birds flying about. It seems I cannot will myself to get up and do it, though. The cat seems intrigued as to what’s going on out there. Hmm.

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I’ll have to look and open the blinds, just because I don’t want to do so. It’s important for me to take steps like that and not slip into a rather deep, dark hole.

I’m feeling alone today. Have been for a few days. I feel like even though I am busy and ill, I take the time to reach out to others, but I don’t feel any reciprocation. Not from friends or family.

I just want to retreat further within myself. Trying not to, though.

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Trying…..

6 thoughts on “Open

  1. The distancing and feeling like people are not caring ? You know that is a Brain Lie ? Of course it is !

    Living in the desert where the sun is brutal, I leave my blinds shut and have sheers over the top of the blinds. It’s all an effort to keep the too bright light and heat out .

    Plus I have no song birds to watch.

    Keep trying

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  2. I felt this very thing a few evenings ago. I have been busting my butt helping my sister get moved as well as helping a few friends with stuff and in doing so have let my own living space turn into a cluttered mess. I was lamenting to my friend Tim on how I felt overused and he reminded me of other times my family helped me, but at the time I just needed to vent. I prayed and slept and woke up with a better feeling.

    I often think of and pray for friends I don’t see daily and rarely I suppose do I let them know how much they mean to me or reach out to see how they are. I hope you open the blinds today Jen, it looks to be a beautiful day! ((((HUGS))))💐

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  3. I don’t have any helpful wisdom for you. But I do know that I appreciate your friendship and your reaching out to check on me. You are very sweet and I cherish your friendship.

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