Kate and Anthony

KATE & ANTHONY ~ 6.8.18


Hard, hard week. Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain.


According to cdc.gov, on average there are 123 suicides per day.


So, Kate and Anthony were 2 of the 861 that died at their own hand this week. Heartbreaking.


Suicide and Mental Health issues do not discriminate among race, gender, age, socioeconomic status, perceived celebrity, and more. It can and DOES truly strike anyone.

Living with Bipolar, and having stared down the barrel of suicide’s gun many times myself, this scares me.

How many times do those who successfully commit suicide think about doing it before hand, and even try and are not successful? If I’m being absolutely honest, which I’m trying to do because otherwise, what is the point of this blog, suicide scares me. So many days, people successfully talk themselves out of taking their lives, but all too often, a day comes when they fail, and are ultimately successful in taking their lives. I’m scared that one day I too will fail. Hopefully, this healthy fear will keep me here until The Lord calls me home. I try for myself and for my family.


Any of you struggling right now, please contact someone for help – suicide hotline, website, text, therapist, support group, doctor, friend or family. God bless. Let’s help keep each other safe, friends.

11 thoughts on “Kate and Anthony

  1. The fear is real. I also remember sitting with a gun in my hand. I was squatted down on my kitchen floor. I was there for about 14 hours deliberating…stay….or get the pain over with.
    I honestly can’t tell you why I didn’t do “It”
    Grace of God ? That’s the only answer I have.
    Those of us who suffer from suicidal depression …well we hide it so well.
    People would never know what is going on inside our minds.
    And the impulse can be overwhelming and come on so quickly .
    That is the scary thing


  2. It saddens me that mental healthcare is not more accessible or affordable in our country. I know these two had access and could afford it and it did not help them, so perhaps I mean I wish it were more routine and accepted to seek treatment. It should be as easy as going to the doctor for the flu, however it isn’t. I really am at a loss as to what it will take to change the culture of our country?

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    1. You make a good point, but I know I’e had healthcare access and when considering suicide, still struggled with reaching out for help, but so thankful I did. What I’m saying is, my fear is when I get that low, what if I can’t talk myself into reaching out for help.

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  3. These people had all the money and access to quality health care., therapy and even exercise trainers and cooks. It makes me wonder how the poor folks like us manage .

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  4. i told my doctor a month ago about my date and plan, awful nightmares etc.. and he just looked at me and said ‘come back and see me in two weeks’ made no reference to anything i had poured from my very soul. i did not go back. i have reached out for help there is none here. so my plan stands. i am just getting my affairs in order while i put in the time and attend two events i will not mess up for two people. there is no help.


    1. Geraldine, I’m checking in on you again. Please….. it definitely sounds like your doctor treated you horribly, but I know there are people who care about and love you. I’m glad to talk and/or listen anytime.


  5. Once you start making the plan you must seek professional help, please?
    Friends can only do so much … professional counsellor .. doctors are just drug pushing coz they can’t deal with emotions … a counsellor you trust please?

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