How I Feel

HOW I FEEL ~ 6.15.18

Having an extremely rough time of it. I feel quite alone. I did want to check in and share that simply because this blog is supposed to relay the ups and downs of Bipolar. I feel alone, abandoned, ignored, without any value, and as though I’ve nothing to contribute. I know the facts are this is not true, but I still *feel* these emotions just now. Take care of yourselves, folks. ✌

TWO HOURS LATER –

Trying to fight back against this depression and the intrusive, harmful thoughts. I had said earlier that I was going to take a break from talking and an online presence, but I don’t need to isolate – whether online or in day to day living. Tomorrow, the family is going to take my husband out to eat for Father’s Day. I’m going to try to get to an evening church service on Sunday night, and set up something on MeetUp. I appreciate any support. I’m trying.

7 thoughts on “How I Feel

  1. 2 nights ago I was awake all night. I was feeling very edgy and uncomfortable. I too was having those worthless feelings. I was feeling very alone and like no one loved me or would miss me if I were gone.

    The thoughts were very intrusive and I actually became frightened .

    I was starting to slip into suicidal ideation. I didn’t have a “Plan” , but the thoughts kept pushing into my mind .

    It was pretty awful.

    I finally had to get up and walk around my little house .

    I guess I finally fell asleep .

    The next day I made sure I went out and did some errands and went out to breakfast.

    My main problem with my life is I spend too much time alone

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