Preparing for my mom’s birthday, Thanksgiving and the holiday season. In quite a bit of physical pain. Have to go see a neurologist. Another specialist. I’m tired of them. I suppose, well I KNOW, I should be thankful that I have health insurance. So many don’t. Long ago, I heard someone say, “There will always be someone longing to experience your worst day.” I know that’s true. And hey, my son is doing well. My family is well. Hell, the cat is well. My friends are experiencing some struggles.
I think a lot of people experience medical and mental illnesses with more grace than I do. Many, many more. Way more grace. All I want to do sometimes is isolate, and that’s not because I don’t want to be around people; rather, I just want to feel free to feel like hell. I do not feel like I should do that in front of my family.
Anyway, I’m not bad off, but I’m not great. Living in the in between, as I just heard in a show last night called Picnic at Hanging Rock. Novel and movie before this Amazon series, yes. Australian folklore.
Anyway, one character mentioned to another that they need to live in the world of in between. Sounds exhausting to me, quite frankly.
Anyway, I’m going to see the pain management specialist tomorrow. That will help a bit. We plan to see the latest version of The Grinch this week. The one with Benedict Cumberbatch. Do a little Christmas shopping, maybe.
Guess I had a little more than nothing, as it turned out.
Take care of yourselves and each other, guys. Love & Peace always. 💙✌🙏
11.9.18 – God Knows Where I Am
I just watched a fascinating and tragic documentary on Netflix called God Knows Where I Am.
I recommend that anyone watch it for a better understanding of mental illness and how, even in what is supposed to be the best country in the world, a seriously ill woman could be released from a mental health facility and ultimately allowed to starve to death in an empty home in the middle of a brutally cold winter.
As a person diagnosed as Bipolar with psychosis, it is terrifying.