On Being Absent

8.8.19 blog entry
Sorry I’ve not been in touch. I’m pretty sure my wrist is broken. My mom went to the hospital. My son is having trouble with a friend. My husband’s office management is going through big changes; people are antsy. Before all of this, I was already in a depressive state, with anxiety and insomnia.

And that wrist I mentioned is in a lot of pain now after tapping this short entry.

Gotta run.

How are you guys? ✌

Extremely Depressed

8.2.19 blog entry

I’ve been having trouble writing lately.

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I am so depressed. There is no reason I ‘should’ be. Nothing newly bad or upsetting has popped up. Things are status quo. Even a few big, fun things on the horizon. Doesn’t matter though. I can barely get up. I’m sleeping a lot. I am starting to feel that paranoia biting at me.

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Just gotta keep trying.

Weighted Blankets and Sleeping Masks

7.30.19 blog entry

Question & looking for advice/feedback – have any of you guys tried weighted blankets and/or weighted eye masks to help alleviate headaches, sinus issues, anxiety and/or stress?

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Did you experience good and positive results?

I’m adding a couple of links – one an article and one an item for sale. I’m considering the mask especially.

 

https://smartsleeptech.com/tools/weightedblanket-lt.php?affId=B30A00E5&c1=edjuh7_ayem&c2=blanket

https://www.amazon.com/Weighted-Gravity-Creator-Blanket-Science/dp/B07C62RHLF

 

 

BD Comorbidity

“BD comorbidity was independently associated with panic disorder with agoraphobia, impulse control disorders, and suicide attempts.

Patients with OCD and BD present greater severity, including higher suicide risk, and require specific treatment strategies.”

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Check out this article about Bipolar Disorder, OCD and other disorders, that combine to form what is called comorbidity. I know many people with Bipolar Disorder through blogging, becoming more active in the mental health community and past support groups, as well as therapy. Every single one of them has Bipolar Comorbidity – Bipolar with other psychiatric disorders and/or Bipolar with medical diseases and ailments. It can be overwhelming and seemingly unmanageable. Your body and mind can go to a very dark and dangerous place.

For more information, and as always, to help educate and eradicate stigma, read the article below from sciencedirect.com in the Journal of Affective Disorders.

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https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0165032719305506

 

 

 

A Better Day

7.15.19 blog entry

Better 🌞

Today has been a better day. I wish that I could tell you it’s because of something special I did. Something specific. However, I have done the same thing today as I do every other day, which is trying to do my strengthening exercising and cardio for the sometimes crippling, and most of the time debilitating, fibromyalgia.

Emotionally and mentally I’ve done better today – again I don’t know why. I didn’t read anything special. I didn’t create anything special. I didn’t listen to anything special, or even watch anything special. The best I can remember I was actually in a trance yesterday, and every once in awhile come to and wonder what I had been sitting and doing. I’m not saying I dissociated. I’m simply saying that I totally checked out. Is it possible that that’s what I needed?

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Did I need to just check out more often – give myself that permission – and take care of myself emotionally, mentally and physically!? I don’t know maybe it just all boils down to the damn chemicals just like it always has and always will with Bipolar Disorder. I don’t know.

I do know that I’m thankful that I feel a little bit better this evening. And I know that I’m about to do some drawing and listen to some music, and hopefully continue to enjoy my evening before I fall asleep.

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I hope that all of you guys reading this are doing well and/or getting better. Love and light to you all.🙏✌