Just wanted to check in real quick. I’m alive.
I’m behind on reading other’s blogs. I thank you for your continued support. I feel I should tell you that I was extremely mixed-episode type ill for a couple of weeks around early January (I believe). Then, I was physically ill after my immune carrier-monkey son brought home the flu. Then, I had to start with a new PM doc, and new meds and changes. Finally, a moment to breathe, I think, and we get texts stating my aunt lost her battle with 20 + years of Parkinson’s. Everyone is sad, family devastated, but my happiness comes from knowing two things.
1. She’s no longer in pain.
2. She is with Our Savior, Christ Jesus.
So, in Terminator type style, I say to you, “I’ll be back.”
Today, I was happy.
I felt thankful. I felt glad to serve my family a good meal. I was overjoyed to hear music, laughter, conversation, and a beautiful blessing at lunch said by my son. I felt very little physical pain. I was not anxious.
This has been such a glorious and blessed day, and I thank God. I forgot what this felt like.
Somewhere out there in social media world, probably IG and Twitter, I see posts on Saturdays about beloved cats. Thus, #Caturday.
I’m a couple hours late, but I totally got down with the whole cat deal, while celebrating Mother’s Day, even. Actually, that kicked it off, kinda. I was given a Willow Tree figurine. I adore those. I mean, for years I have collected them. This one resembled me, though. Dark hair girl holding a loving orange cat looking up affectionately at his guardian/mom. (Aka Richard Parker in my home). The inserted card with the figurine names the pretty trinket “Kindness, Above All, Kindness.”
Later, I colored in my kitten pictures coloring book. I wore my awesome cat headphones my in-laws gave me and jammed out, all next to my awesome cat night-light. Of course, sweet orange tabby was in my lap or snuggled in the blanket at my feet.
How is this relevant to a Bipolar Blog? It’s not a long entry, but the things I’ve mentioned convey and gift love and delight. These type of things and love go a long way in helping me be thankful and smile.
Smiles, laughter, craft or art of some kind, music, and pets who love you and help beat the blues…these are fantastic meds!
May is Mental Health Awareness Month.
So let’s talk about it one piece of a screwed up jigsaw puzzle that hopefully makes things a bit more tolerable.
Sometimes, it’s the little things. Taking a stroll, working with flowers in the lawn, visiting an aquarium, having lunch out just me alone, family time of talks or games, playing with four-legged friends, like my favorite orange tabby, Richard Parker.
I even receive a monthly Cat Lady Box. Has decorative cat stuff for me, the Crazy one, and even two toys for the cat. These make me smile, and I try to find reasons to smile and laugh each day. Wards off the blues… sometimes… and helps me remember to be thankful for those things and people I have in my life.
Colouring while cuddling with my cat, Richard Parker. You read this blog often, you’ll learn quickly how much it means to me that I’m his human. He helps me when I’m down or anxious. He is so loving. Unconditional love. xo