If I Could Send a Letter

Sometimes, I have these thoughts. Things one might see when watching The Twilight Zone.

I see two photos of me when I’m younger and it’s Christmastime.

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And I ponder –

If I could send a letter back in time, a letter to my younger self revealing something very significant ahead –ย  my father dying when I am 15 years old, and hey even better Little Girl, you won’t be there when he literally drops dead – nevertheless, a letterย  giving myself the chance to do things differently, say things I wish I would have said, would I do it?

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Because the bonus round includes strapping a bomb on that naive girl’s back, the smiling brunette, weighing her down,ย  cursed with knowledge, clock ticking. Tick tock. Tick tock.

Waiting.

God, I miss my Dad.

Joy

12.23.18 blog entry – Joy

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How are you, guys?

I ask because the holidays can be a challenging time for anyone – wonderful things like family and preparing a Christmas feast, but some sad times too like missing someone long gone, celebrating in Heaven.

Besides missing folks, sometimes people don’t have anyone joining them for the holidays, sometimes shopping can spike anxiety levels because of the crowds and loud noise and the rush.

So, I just want to say Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays. I hope you’re doing okay. I hope you find and feel JOY and love. I hope you chuckle at something cute and silly.

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Again I ask, how are you? Please reach out if you need help. Please don’t isolate. You are NOT alone. Not because of your circumstances and not because of your feelings.

God bless you. Take care of yourselves and each other. ๐Ÿ™โœŒ๐ŸŽ„

Christmas Mexican Feast

12.6.18 blog entry.

Hello, everyone. Hope you are well. I’m feeling quiet these days. I’m not depressed…I don’t think so, anyway. I am certainly struggling with chronic pain and illness, but I’m getting through it. My son has really stepped up and is helping us quite a bit.

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Looking forward to Christmas. We’re thinking Mexican food.

Does anyone else do something that’s not exactly traditional for Christmas Day Meal?

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We usually open gifts Christmas Eve night, attend a church service, and then on Christmas Day have tacos, taquitos, chips & salsa (you get the idea) and then hit a movie or two. Anyone have a film recommendation?

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Holidays can often times be very difficult for those of us with mental illness. How are you guys doing?

Take care of yourselves and each other. ๐ŸŽ…๐Ÿ™โค๐Ÿ’š๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŒฎ๐ŸŒฏ