WAIT TO HEAR HOPE TO HELP

Wait to Hear ~ 6.24.18

One thing I’m discovering with having joined an online support group and writing this blog is the power of friendship and knowing you’re not alone. Unfortunately, with these mental illness issues, we lose every day people and friends, not just celebrities that are featured in the news.

I lost a dear friend a year or so back. One friend has been considering suicide, and another has just cut off online presence, which is strange for her and unnerving based on the last conversations we’ve had.

I wait to hear and hope to help.

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Have any of you been through this, and how were you able to offer support?

Treat yourselves well, guys.πŸ’–πŸ’›

(photo credit: R.I.T)

Black

BLACK ~ 4.4.18

Here’s a thing. Great mood or not, Johnny Cash music speaks to the situation every time. 🎡🎢🎧🎡🎢🎧 The Man in Black. Every single time.

As for me.

Truth?

It’s not peppy social media post type stuff. It’s the negative stuff most people fail to post.

SPOILER ALERT: LIFE (and its truths and this post) AREN’T ALWAYS PRETTY.

Miserable. That’s me. Okay? Miserable. So miserable and tired of fighting it. And for effin what? Even if I crawl my way back to the top, I’ll be back here soon. It is the reality I face with my day-to-day, week-to-week, month-to-month Bipolar. And I’m so extremely tired of the physical pain.

And I love you folks, I promise I do, but don’t tell me to pray it away with name it and claim it, and don’t tell me to drink a smoothie. Sometimes, it really is okay to say, “I have no idea what you face, or what to say, but I’m listening. I care. I’m here. It’s important to me you’re on this planet.”

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Alive

I’m checking in with you guys.

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I’m alive. I’m okay… if I’m describing my emotional state. Maybe a little on the downside. The reason I’ve not written much, however, is due to the chronic physical pain I experience. I had a bit of an accident in the house, and basically everything hurts!

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I guess I’m realizing as I type, that truly the pain’s got me somewhat down.

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Anyway, I’m okay.

The point of this blog is to capture and share everyday life with these illnesses. Otherwise, there’s no accurate, true representation.

I will try harder to pull it together.

So… how are you? What’s up in your lives?