How I Feel

HOW I FEEL ~ 6.15.18

Having an extremely rough time of it. I feel quite alone. I did want to check in and share that simply because this blog is supposed to relay the ups and downs of Bipolar. I feel alone, abandoned, ignored, without any value, and as though I’ve nothing to contribute. I know the facts are this is not true, but I still *feel* these emotions just now. Take care of yourselves, folks. ✌

TWO HOURS LATER –

Trying to fight back against this depression and the intrusive, harmful thoughts. I had said earlier that I was going to take a break from talking and an online presence, but I don’t need to isolate – whether online or in day to day living. Tomorrow, the family is going to take my husband out to eat for Father’s Day. I’m going to try to get to an evening church service on Sunday night, and set up something on MeetUp. I appreciate any support. I’m trying.

Everything and Nothing and So Much More

Thoughts?

For me, rings 100% truth.

Especially everything & nothing and paralyzed.

Paralyzed while your brain won’t stop screaming at you! I imagine it’s a lot like solitary confinement or maybe even torture of some sort. Just darkness and a brain on fire, then slush, and no way out, even though you claw so hard you lose your nails and bloody your fingers.

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