Recommending for relaxation, distraction (the good kind), focus or sleep. Epic thunder and rain. White noise. Hope it helps. 10 hours roughly on youtube. So, you’ve got your visual and audio.
4.18.19 blog entry ~ Back Home
So, I’m feeling some better. I have a bit more energy, and I feel…well, I almost feel…like things are more manageable. That is definitely not something I believed a day or two ago. I guess going to the hospital with symptoms mirroring heart issues and being admitted to the hospital, coupled with the likes of nitro and potassium, would rock me to my core. My own dad died of his third heart attack at the age of 44, after all. I’m 42. And his dad died of the same issue at age 47. So, I went, I saw, and was stuck with tons of needles, underwent many tests, and lived to tell the tale. My heart is healthy. I’m stunned. Based on family history and medications alone, never mind our poor diet since I’m not able to cook all the time. But hey, a win is a win!
I’m home now, but I am still experiencing the same pain. That part makes me angry.
I’m tired of physical and mental ailments. “Sick and Tired” – perfect description. Just gotta keep putting one foot in front of the other, I suppose.
A friend told me I’m an inspiration to her because, “You keep going, love.” Eh. To which I replied that I just continue breathing because of these sorts of invisible life support machines that won’t let me go. A large part of me still believes that, but I’m starting to come back round and count my blessings. Tonight, I even enjoyed watching and smelling rain and freshly cut grass. That was a nice Reset Button, if you will. I’ve been listening to my favorite playlists via Amazon Music – performers such as Halsey, Bruce Springsteen and Billie Eilish, and watching whatculture on youtube. I just love that channel with its discussion of films, comic books and gaming. And heck, I’m writing this, and I’ve chosen a new book to read. Those are good indicators of my better moods. Anything like that, as well as creating craft décor and reading/writing poetry are significant and usually mean good things, even if my poetry reads as “dark.”
Anyway, I’m managing. How are you guys? Anything new? Anything you need or want to share?
Take care of yourself, and when you can, each other.
(photo credit: guysandgoodhealth)
Have you guys watched Black Mirror on Netflix? I fell in love with the mostly bleak (that’s putting it mildly) and dark show, that had a few episodes sprinkled in that ended happily. I think this show is very entertaining, but I also think it’s pertinent as hell because, as shown in this series, we already have a lot of the technology that can cause serious problems, and if we don’t have it now, it’s just beyond our reach, and the idea of exploring whether or not we *should follow through with these advances of which we’re capable is intriguing to me.
I also see a lot of mental health issues to discuss in these episodes. Really, off the top of my head, I can’t think of one episode that doesn’t dive into the human psyche. Think: Arkangel, Be Right Back and White Bear!
So, I’m saying Black Mirror is a smash-up of human psyche, tech advancements and the Twilight Zone? Yes. Yes, I am.
Anyway, attached here is a YouTube clip ranking the 20 episodes. I agree for the most part; however, I think the Metalhead episode is easily the best, hands freakin down!
In future entries, I’m going to try to dig into a few of my favs and share where my head is with each, but I can’t promise. I’m in a sort of survival mode right now, so sometimes writing sounds good; sometimes not so much.
If you watch Black Mirror, what do you think of my ramblings and the ranking piece below? I would love to hear.
Obviously if you watch – spoiler alert!
Lately, I’ve done nothing. Well, I’ve survived.
I mean seriously, I’ve been watching YouTube clips with people explaining movie endings, or the top ten most secretive, yet oh so fantastic, horror films on Netflix. Ugh.
I’ve not written. I’ve not created. I don’t know that I’ve had an original thought.
But, thus far, I have survived. Maybe that’s enough for now. ✌